I've Found Peace in Art and Music
Never thought this before, it said bipolar patients are more likely attracted to art, it's neither due to the talent that god gave them, nor the ability they can highly relate to others' pain and loneliness, or maybe?
It said because art is the "silver-lining" they can only get attach to, which means last thing that explaining meaning of their existence.
I feel this way, cause I had peace in coding my flag project while listening to piano music at the mid of night. I always feel like I can sense something others can't, last time I went to the hospital there was a volunteer playing Adult Lang Sang, at least not one of those ultimate sad type, but all I can tell is never-ending tears crept my eyes, especially at this place.
Speaking of piano, I used to have this music teacher when I was in middle school, every time she hears or plays one piece of music, there always tears around her, I felt so strange, why is there anybody so sad on this earth?
Now I see, she's definite bipolar and definite suffered a lot, from this awful world, too much.
Now I see, the same feeling I can get, I see ugliness surpass beauty, pouring so much personal stuff into my blog, my project.
Every time I open my code editor and turn on spotify, I would indulge myself into some kind of deep hole, picturing a better world. Others called it "Daydreaming", something I started to do since I was pretty young, but it is not the thing that kind of word can describe, it means much more to me.