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My Favourite Films

I watched about 300+ films by now, among which there are many good ones. My very first motivation was to better listen and understand English, just like the way I did to music. It is really helping, of course. I mean, really... Nowadays when I turn back and to see the whole journey, the journey of film watching, that I'm very proudly to annonce I learnt every single English from the television. That basicely explains the tenderness I imposed in writing and why my words in real life so drama. You know, these are films... thay're not real: Neither fabricated to daydream something unreal, for building Neverland to help curing and escaping your chaotic, depressing life. Nor the perfect something for expressing anger and pain which you already learnt so well to endure in a complete comfortablly numb.

That's enough talk, let's go back to the topic. That's why I enjoy these "life-movies". Sudden violence or emotional burst in a total mild, peaceful atmosphere, conflicting the way you seek love and comfort from life full of pain. Among all of these I like YiYi and J'ai tué ma mère(I killed my mother) the most, I even wrote a long review for YiYi years ago, which you can find in this site.

So let's talk about these two: One is for helpless and confused youth, one for miserable middle age story. Well I thought I can write a lot about I Killed My Mother, but the hard truth is I can't recall so much about this film, at least not all the time as YiYi did to me. Scences that impress me the most, or if I can conclude this film in only 3 images, that will be: "If you die today, I'll die tomorrow", "All my classmates are dumbasses, don't even know how to count" and the family video at the end of the film.

The first phrase serves as a symbol for a complicated, suffocating yet still loving mother-son or family relationship. These words are so heavy, despite this most of individuals or families agree, compassionate it. Therefore as also so many of other reviews anyises it, I won't talk too much detail about it, I'll go and preserve my private memories, at least for now.

I want to talk about the second one, "All my classmates are dumbasses": SO TRUE.... It doesn't mean literally I regard them as absolutely dumbasses, also not literally because they don't know how to count. Conversely they count so well. Just because talking to someone who does not share any interest with you is just a dumbass act to waste all your time and youth. C'mon, when you share your story, talking about your miserable pain and past, cab you count on them to fully understand? Please don't waste your time here, not even to mention Xavier Dolan himself's identity. For me, another reason for this is I don't think things that school teaches me consists any value.(Maybe something is not, but forgive me I just wannna deny everything) Anything from school is useless, that'll be my attitude. If I continue to write and express then that'll be another article, I just want to mention two things here: One, I learnt everything, every English from television. Two, while others still write "Firstly", "Secondly", "LastButNotTheLeast" in their essay is just so stupid.